Tuesday, August 04, 2009
He started to avoid me. How and why i don't really know. But most probably he found out in a way that i'm most unwilling for him to find out with. Sad? Quite. More of lost. I have been circling in my own world around him for way too long that now that i was forced to stop, i couldn't find my way anymore.
But can i comment that he's also a coward?? A coward who doesn't even dare or willing to face someone who like him. I mean i wouldn't bug you at all. I wouldn't even force you to accept anything or even force you to face me, talk to me. I wouldn't. You really don't have to avoid me. I will avoid you if that's what you really want..
PS: I don't feel sad.. Not to the verge that i will keep crying. I'm just lost and i need to find my way back or even find a new way...
I'm sick again. Great. My parents haven't been very understanding towards me in things. In my house, i seems to be someone quite invisible to an extent. Someone that could be not there unless needed. I'm not trying to complain anything. But it just seems that to them, i'm another person that i don't even know of myself. I don't like this thinking. I should stop.. Bye.
Will my tears please go back.. 8:57:00 AM